Reality just bit me

Yes, Reality bit me today after receiving a reminder email about the release of results next week. I'm already in Second Year!

From my earlier post, I was ranting on the obstacles coming before me and.. I've made it to Second Year already! I'm actually concerned about my Second semester results. Well, I can pass but getting at least 10 points and above? :S

Hearsay, there is a type of personalities that are fitting to a certain scope of jobs. somehow, I could not have almost the same wavelength with the people in the Science field. As I started this course, I could speak the same wavelength with my classmates! :) I have an AWESOME-DARY bunch of friends :D Tehaha...

Alright, back to topic. *Ahem* How is that so? Some of our Business subjects are given as electives for the Psychology (Psychos for short) students. Therefore, certain subjects has a mixture of both Business & Psychos students. By the 2nd semester, you can obviously be able to tell by similar obvious traits whether that student is a Business/Psychos student. I will not elaborate further on the obvious traits. This is purely based on my observations.

First semester was a breeze and I was afraid at the subjects that awaits in Second semester. Then, I met my wonderful cousin, Raymond who was like a God's gift to me! A wonderful help and someone I can talk shop with especially coming from a family who are basically professionals. He's a reservoir of knowledge, I say! I must must have continuous learning and reading to reach his stage.

Amazing, Grandpa is getting interested in the Business books that I've been reading of late while Dad is into my Economist and Business magazines too. They keep me on my toes to be updated when discussions arises on the topics. I'm so happy :) I do still like to tap on Raymond's mind if he is available.

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On the down side, Aunty Ally has just passed away in Germany. The most fun-loving lady I have ever met is gone who lost the battle to leukemia. I still remember that she would want to attend my wedding and see how my husband look like and all the advice about guys and their tricks too. :) Good times. Great times. I won't be editing the pictures of the year she came down for now. She never let the C bring her down and always laughing. I really will miss her greatly too.

My Godpa has also fallen victim to the C of the brain. I pray that he will be in good health when I fly down to visit and will continue to recover. Another fun-loving man, full of laughter. I do also pray that he can recover enough to be able to visit Penang which Aunty Ally was not able to fulfill that wish.

Praise God that my immediate family is blessed with good health and it stays that way. Life is so short and we are so busy with our lives to spend time with each other.


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All right, putting that aside....

Today, I had quality time with Swari's and Sue's family and later, Uncle Theva dropped by. We three girls finally.... received...

Cha-ching! Ang pows from Uncle Theva!!




Looking forward to seeing his adorable two daughters this Friday. :)


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Dedicated to Aunty Ally, Godpa and all those warriors against the C. - Titanium by David Guetta ft. Sia

Goals

Before I elaborate on about what I intend to write, first of all, wow, a lot happened since 2008. The experience I gained from working part-time at the Matta Fair seems so minuet now. A lot have happened since then. Good, bad and terrible experiences which I have went through.

Currently, I have started a Business Management course back at Disted. Disted has changed a lot internally and externally to the extend of their name! It was very nice to see the old faces there. :)

My lecturers are aware that I have no Commerce background at all due to the fact of being a total pure science students; and very concerned about it. There was so many subjects dumped on us, science students during high school which prohibited us to take any extra subjects. Well, it's no use focusing on the cause but how to fix/improve the situation. I'm blessed with practically all my lecturers who are patient and very helpful. The only thing that would help me push through is reading and doing a lot of background work. I pray that God gives me the strength to push through this with flying colours.

Back to the topic, 'Goals'. Our homework for my Business Skills 1 was to list out our short, medium and long term goals.

I'm technically still practicing yearly goals set for myself, but not these kind of goals. As I reflect my old list of these 'kind' of goals. I cannot help myself laughing somehow.

Since the age of 5 or 6, I wanted to achieve at least a certificate of anything each year. You must understand where I was coming from for I used to think then that getting a certificate proves - I have achieved/learn something. Innocent thinking? Actually, I was looked upon then as a child who could not possible achieve anything. I remembered even bringing my whole certificates to prove them wrong. Only around the age of 13, I stumbled on this article and read it - making me realize that not everything is based on a certificate. :) But I still admit that I do still gain a certificate annually but it's not a main goal anymore. I modified it as one of my goals to pushing myself to become a more intellectually and skilled person.

Though I've done Personal Development Programme during my diploma course, I'm glad to do this again with this lecturer, Ms Jaya. She has now made me to make new(or updated?) short, medium and long term goals.

This will be a very interesting journey for me... :)

I dedicate this song to my young self -

Written in the Stars by Tinie Tempah

[Eric Turner]
Oh written in the stars
A million miles away
A message to the main
Ooooh
Seasons come and go
But I will never change
And I’m on my way

[Tinie Tempah - Verse 1]
Lets go…
Yeah
You’re listening now
They say they aint heard nothing like this in a while
Thats why they play my song on so many different dials
Cause I got more hits than a disciplined child
When they see me everybody brrrrrap’s, brrrrrraps
Man I’m like a young gun fully black Barrack
I cried tear drops over the massive attack
I only make hits like I work with a racket and bat
Look at my jacket and hat
So damn berserk
So down to earth
I’m bringing gravity back
Adopted by the major I want my family back
People work hard just to get all their salary taxed
Look Im just a writer from the ghetto like Malory blackman
Where the hells all the sanity at, damn
I used to be the kid that no one cared about
Thats why you have to keep screaming til they hear you out

[Chorus]
Oh Written In The Stars
A Million Miles Away

A Message To The Main
Ooooh
Seasons Come And Go
But I Will Never Change
And I'm On My Way

[Tinie Tempah - Verse 2]
Yeah, I needed a change
When we ate we never took because we needed a change
I needed a break
For a sec I even gave up believing and praying
I even done the legal stuff and was leaded astray
Now money is the root to the evilist ways
But have you ever been so hungry that it keeps you awake
Mate, now my hunger would leave them amazed
Great, it feels like a long time coming, fam
Since the day I thought of that cunning plan
One day I had a dream I tried to chase it
But I wasn’t going nowhere, running man!
I knew that maybe someday I would understand
Trying to turn a tenner to a hundred grand
Everyones a kid that no-one cares about
You just have to keep screaming until they hear you out

[Chorus]
Oh Written In The Stars
A Million Miles Away
A Message To The Main
Ooooh
Seasons Come And Go
But I Will Never Change
And I'm On My Way

[Outro]

Does AGE matters???

At the moment.....

I'm so exhausted and tired mentally and physically. Will write soon about my experience at the Matta Fair~ =)

Tomorrow, I have a test on abbreviations for Business Administration..... however, my brain is beyond saturation! =S

I wonder why the older people, basically the older youths and middle age people has a great tendency of putting my age group down. Somehow, they don't let us speak and be heard etc. And, they give us crap like we are childish, unpractical, not matured, rebellious irresponsible, spoiled and so on....blaming that we are grown in a more comfortable environment than them. Like hey, you don't give us our dues and space and then have a dare to tag us with all this crap??

Cut us some slack for goodness sake. We are trying to feel and find our way. So, give some guidance and help us through with good sound advice in a proper way.. Do you think ways of nagging, yelling, shouting will make us listen?? Heck, do you? Yes, we are stubborn sometimes to not heed what you say.. for we have to experience on our own like first day at school...

At this point, I'm trying to understand.. is this a bad habit that has been passed down by generations like superstitions? Is this just a sort of mentality?

Yes I do agree, the older you are, the more experience you are. It does not mean you are more matured and the wiser. How did you spend your time when you were at that age? How much exposure did you have? What did you learn and experience?? The list just goes on...

Let's look at this way, age is given is to more a less determined the maturity that you are expected by society to have. That's why at a certain age, you are given certain responsibilities...

On the hold, I don't believe that you have to judge a person also by their age. There are people who has higher digits than me acting more childish than me. *sigh.

Oh well, back to my abbreviations!

Under construction...

Hi everyone!

I decided to combine all my past post from my various blogs into one which is this blog! They are arranged according to the date when they were posted.

Thousand apologises to all for constantly switching blogs!

Regards,
NesSA. =)

Rojak Week!

The beginning of last week started on a depressing note with the news from my kecik molek. Instead of moving down to Ipoh in 2 years time, it was brought forward to 2 months! Ugh, this was so premature as I had planned to spend some time with her after my exams. >_<>

Haiz, well, putting this aside, my friends from outstation were back for the Raya break! I was so excited to meet up with them and catch up with each other!

Before I could even meet anyone of them….. Mum bought me roses as she felt bad about throwing away my Star Gazers!!! Great, I ended up with a sinus problem… Running nose, watery eyes….the works! Ugh, imagine sitting for chemistry practical and mathematics paper 1 in this condition!

Meeting up with Lynn was great! Still cute and cheeky she is! We caught up with each other and reminisced about old days. Gosh, I can’t believe I sat with her for one whole year! I owe a lot to this girl. Without her, I don’t think I could have caught up with lots of my school work as I was often down with my wheezing then or called away for prefect duties. Also, waking me up when teacher walks into class! Well, I have indentations in my left side and head to prove that she can be…..cute? hahahaha! xD Don’t be fooled by her size! Later, we met up with Yee Yin and….the madness continued!.... *grins.

Yesterday, before meeting up with Caryn and Sarah.. I decided to drop in at the library. Seeing my friends in long sleeves and ties… I remember that it was the Merit Scholarship presentation day!!! AND, I didn’t know whether I would be allowed to kay po or not.. -.-‘’ Well, my answer came in a tall, dark and loud person….who had the intentions of being a kay po too! Better still, he had a camera!.... muahahaha!

So, like ‘partners in crime’, we entered the hall boldly. I thought I was blur until I met this admin lady… she thought both of us were parents! …. HAH??? Can you imagine? Parents?? A couple?? …. God help me!

Embarassed, we tried to look inconspicuous and found a seat at the back. As Karthigan got up to take photos, an admin guy approached me and said,

“ Excuse me, would you like to seat in front with the other parents??”

My gosh! It was so hard to smile pleasantly back at him! -.- Was he blind? Dumb or something? HellO! I’m a student here in the very place you are working!!

Later, Karthigan sat beside me and frowned.. after restarting his camera, he said really loudly, “ OH SHIT” (something like that la) Guess what?? So many many eye balls were directed at us! I felt myself saying, “Floor, please swallow me up!”

So, why the ‘shit’, evidently, Karthigan batteries were dead. Ugh, I mean…CAMERA batteries! The phrase ‘who can be so stupid to bring a camera with dead batteries,’ was uttered by me over and over again.

Anyway, when I looked up at his ‘sorrowful’ face, I ended up driving him to buy the batteries for his camera. After all, he had gone out of his way to take photos of his buddies… *shrugs.

Even with my embarrassment, I managed to see some amusing characters such as Gaston, Anastasia, Timun, Drizella, John Rolfe, Belle’s Beast, Sir Hiss, Little John and so many more… Hahaha! xD

Halfway, I had to leave as I had to pick Sarah and meet Caryn. We scraped the movie as I was still not fully recovered from the allergy attack. Laughter was the rule of the day too and as you can see….we had all became kind of ‘bulat’… ^^ One is in Form6, the other in Matriculation while other is in college. So, we had lots and lots to share about in this area!

Well, I have taken my father’s advice to put a little time aside for friends instead of just mere studying. As I’m taking both AS and A2 exams, I’m blessed with a very relaxed schedule which allows me to not be so stressed up this time.

My, there’s been so many ups and downs and all within a week! xD

And the Journey continues……………

Joshua had invited both Darius and me to this musical concert on Sunday and as usual, Darius let us down with excuses. Hmph! ‘And the Journey continues….’ was a charity musical concert in aid of the Dr. J. Earl Gardner Fund. Dr. Gardner was the founder of the Penang Adventist Hospital and the fund is used to help well-deserving patients.

The concert was an eye-opener for me, although Joshua’s sister was one of the ballerinas. There were so many gifted young talents performing for FREE in aid of a good cause. They gave their time and talent unconditionally and the people who came gave their support unconditionally. In a world where we always say “I’m busy”, “No time!”, and I’m one of them, there’s so much to life besides studying, working, earning more and more money…etc. One thing I learnt from this concert is that money cannot buy love, hope, joy and the gift of life. And also for me, friendship, good friends and family. There is a world out there where people need people, care and attention. TLC (Tender Loving Care). It gave me FOCUS! Also, although in the beginning it felt like a chore and a tiring affair to get dressed for the occasion but when I looked at the photo taken that night, I realized that for the whole of this year I had been slacking in this department, always in pants, t-shirts & sneakers. Hmmmm………=)

At the concert, there was this guy, Chong Soo How, 25 (Anthony’s age) who suffered from prolonged joint inflammation of the hips since he was 15 years old and could not bend but only stand or lie down. He lives with his family in a rubber estate with no water and electricity, with no means of communication except from a tiny radio. Under the Dr. Gardner fund he received financial assistance and underwent 3 successful hip replacement surgeries. Today, he is able to work and with what little he earns, he gave so generously back not just in money but time and support of the Fund.This touched me!

Because, practically everyday, in college I hear such moans and groans of some of us college kids who are able to be here in the first place instead of a public school, who have a car at our disposal, who can dine at fancy outlets, buy what we fancy and yet are nothing but melancholic or just annoying. Not contented and not appreciative of what we have and are. Often so focused on the wrong sort of loving and giving.

Sheesh!

In Remembrance of Anthony

My weekend began on a down note with news of the death of a friend, a former neighbour who had moved back to KL. Anthony was an Indian, a few years older and he used to play the guitar at our BEC meetings. On the whole he was a very friendly guy who I used to terrorize as a kid. I was into books about riddles, jokes and disgusting facts at the time and I used to corner him into being a victim of all my riddles. Whenever he annoyed or bullied me, I would step/sometimes jump even, on his feet and run off, leaving him screaming. Haha! ^^ Sorry Anthony, I was so much smaller then and you seemed so big and tall then too.

I guess you could say he was careless. His car broke down on the emergency lane and as he got out, an oncoming car hit him. He died instantly. One moment here, next moment gone! Like me, he was an only child. Anthony had a tendency to be very rash in doing things, always getting emotional and doing things before thinking things out through first. That’s how I always won! J I remember how as a child I used to sit quietly and listen to the times he got himself into scraps because of this nature of his. He tended to get himself into knots. Too much emotion for his own good! What do you expect? He was only 18 then. Well, as I said, this time he just was not so lucky and got careless.

It really does rattle something in me to think that Anthony was someone I knew and so young, so close to my age, and now he is gone! LIFE……..so fragile…..so uncertain………so…….well, Anthony is with the Lord now. After all that studying…..(sigh)

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Things lighten up as I had dinner with family and two very dear people in my life, Fr. Jean Claude, who I used to tie up with his long seat belt in his car, and Fr. Pat, my cousin, my spiritual mentor. It was so good to eat and relax in such company after such a tiring day at college and such a tragic story. Sooooo much to study too!

NEVER GIVE UP

NEVER GIVE UP

You are beaten to earth?

Well, well, what's that?

Come up with a smiling face.

It's nothing against you to fall down flat.

But to lie there - that's a disgrace.

Edmund Vance Cooke (1866 - 1967)

*This quote has been annoying me again today!

So, NAH, here's my smiling face! =)






P.S. I'VE GOT MY JOSH GROBAN 'AWAKE' MUSIC SCORE BOOK!!! *SCREAMS! xD